On adulting.

You cant really run away from adulthood, well at least you cant pretend you're getting any younger. You may pretend you dont care, but trust me, deep down it enthrals you in somewhat negative way. I thought after moving into quarter life, I may have different perception on life, but strangely, everything seems to be normal, albeit maybe (at some point) I'm getting a bit smarter. Like passing driving test ;p

I can drive now, normally people can drive at 17, in case I started driving when Im 25. funny how this world works, I thought (well thought so) I enjoy driving, but at the end of the day, Im still enjoying taking public transport.

A simple reason, drivers are assholes.

I'm in the mode of finishing my dissertation, but writing is such a painstaking task, I wonder how my friends can write so effortless, and at the same time getting good grades. Im not motivated anymore, considering the end of graduate school is not always fun for everyone.

Till then, doakan I kurus seperti sediakala.

lembaga Hitam

Dear ____________,

I want you to know, I stop loving every inch of you.

In fact, I have stop loving you for the longest time.

I stop longing for you.

Sincerely,

A.

Job

My brother in law finally quits his from his job, not knowing what future possibly holds for him. but I must say that was brave action. Despite his strong passion to be the greatest cook in KL, yet there are some unavoidable factors that eventually motivate him to do something better for living. The staggering hours working is not exactly the problem, but racism demented the whole concept of merit, and eventually suffice say, resigning is the only option left.

I never encountered such racism, maybe because I dont really bother to explore the concept of 'race' and 'ethnicity', I found it that two different concept is similar to men's creation to 'divide and conquer'. it simply constructed based on sentiment to be part of 'belonging and belongness' which neither I like. I found it disgrace to the humanity as a whole, as simple as building fraction between people.

after all, we cant choose to born what we are. then, why bother so much of the term 'race'

so, the final question that should be asked here,

what race is your soul? 

Single Asian Rants

I was watching The Expendable movie, with sheer depression. of course, I should sue the director for all the minutes I've spent in the cinema. and not to mention, TGV poor service when there was a discrepancy in the online ticket, and the worst.. the mini homoromantic between arnold something something and Jet Li. well obviously the pressure of LGBTQA (what the hell is A?) is spreading all over the countries, but I guess.. you dont really have 'deconstruct' everything in the name of human rights right? 

I'm not a homophobic, well.. I have some of my friends dare enough to come out from the closet, and been really comfortable with it, but again.. does the real masculinity in the 'western media' should be reconstructed based on the representation of 'white straight male'? and to top that, coupled with asian?

Its funny how everything has been more complicated, in the light of new humanity. we are living in the post modernism, well.. who would thought it could be so complicated?

Anyway, I've finally understand how to use my little mac, not all.. but ok lah for basic task.

Anyway Ma, why I'm no longer part of your readers list?

im so sad :(

post graduate school

Few more days before Im going back school, still Im so indecisive whether going back to school is something that i want, or maybe delayed success as others try to mend my indecisiveness. I've been reading and reread some of books, requested few reading materials from my former teacher, writing, and rewriting some of assignments, yet.. I'm not really confident going back to school.

Just few more weeks, alahai.

Anyway, I already bought new lap top & bag.. and Im hoping this is the right thing to do.

and on a side note..

I have to learn arabic again. errr..

Macbook Pro.

After  a while searching for Macbook Pro, finally I have one. Well, the pain of looking at the price feels really worthwhile when I first get my handsome boy, I wonder why Apple products are so masculine. hehhee..

Anyway, still struggling to familiar with this boy, and better yet.. these interface can be quite confusing.




i'll update later, gotta godek gedok this little boy now!

Anderoid and apple

And ive been using iphone for now, more than 2 years.

And remember when i told you (read my friend) why i wanna change to iphone? 

And I remember exactly what i said.

And at the same time, i remember exactly why we shouldnt be friend. Again.

And, i hope you rememeber it too.

And, i dont miss you anymore.